The latest edition of “When a person is newly diagnosed, they can become overwhelmed with misleading information.
A high school friend and I wound up taking our friendship a little further, and 20 seconds into the act that would change my life forever, he stopped.
I want an exclusive and totally loving relationship with a man who adores me and I him.
But, now that I have this virus, and I am fully aware of the impact it has had on my body (I've had painful symptoms non-stop for months!
I've given myself to very few men over the years, and one of these very few men (who happens to be married, but we are in an open relationship together with his wife's consent, we are essentially "friends with benefits"); well, he was someone that I've always believed cared for me. And what makes this whole situation even worse is that he TOLD me he had it and I didn't take any precautions to protect myself. I've even told my friends that "he didn't know he had it" because I can't even admit to myself that I didn't look out for myself the way I should have.
He is someone I've always felt loved me enough to protect me and keep me safe. The thing I am struggling so deeply with is that I want to have a partner, a totally exclusive partner, not someone who is married and "allowed" to be with another woman.